Light of the world

i've never seen so much pain, suffering, loss, depression, trouble than in the past 6 months. Ah, clinical years, and this is me just starting!

and being a barely 20 year old girl, it's rather hard to handle. It does things to you, unless you aren't human. To see somewhere in pain and suffering, be it mentally, emotionally or physically, it sure does things to me. And i still don't know how to respond to it.

Sure, my God is there, sure He still loves, He still cares but how do you even talk about good stuff when the bad is so prominent, so drastic, so confusing?

Sure we are called to be light of this world, salt of this earth, but how? how do one go out into darkness and shine?