Anyway, sometime between last night and today, i've a whole new realisation of the deeper meaning of
'Your rod and your staff, it comforts me'.
Correction hurts. For someone to point out where you've gone wrong really hurts, when you realise how wrong you've been, how you've disappointed not just yourself and your friends, but also grieve the Holy Spirit.
To realise, how could i have just thought of myself, when God himself, on that cross was thinking of me?
To realise, how i've stubbornly tried to depend on my own strength from time to time even though i realise that i, me, myself will always fail until i, me, myself dies and let God take over.
It really goes 'OUCH! Sakit!' or 'Nyeri!' as the indonesians would say.
But at the same time, i've also realise, that even in my mistakes, God still cares, God is still there, and God wants me to get up and continue running. If not, He would not even bother. But He did. And that really, is a great comfort. :)
Change my heart. Less of me, more of You.
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